I might as well be honest.

The last week and a half has been pretty depressing as far as Spanish goes. I am in the second book now of the intermediate level, and it is much more difficult and goes much faster than the beginner level. It´s sad because I almost cry at least 3 times per class period. Not every day, just about half of them. Thankfully, I am able to suck the tears back into my eyeballs before I give myself away. How embarassing would that be?! It´s really frustrating sometimes. Again, it´s because I have to hear the language, translate it in my brain, and learn the topic at the same time. Sometimes I just can´t do it. If I happened to be writing notes, I miss it. I have been referring back to a scripture that I read at the beginning of my time here.

Doctrine & Covenants 24:8 - "Be patient in afflictions, for thou shalt have many; but endure them, for, lo, I am with thee, even unto the end of thy days."

Well, at least I know I am not alone in my suffering. Plus, many people from the ward are willing to help me if I need it. Today was especially terrible, but then something wonderful happened. I saw they had free tutoring offered (which never happens) so I signed up and had a productive hour with one of the teachers. I was the only one there so we just reviewed everything that I learned in my class today (or rather everything I didn´t learn). Now I understand it all. It was a happy little miracle.

I must also say that it was so fun to have the hour of tutoring (all in Spanish) and realize afterwards that I understood everything that was said. I think Spanish and I just have a love/hate relationship sometimes.